Two Years Ago Today

Two years ago today, our beautiful Bethy had to leave us. She had been through more than any child anywhere could ever go through, and despite being the strongest, most beautiful little girl I could wish for, it was just too much for her, and she had to go.

Not a day - not One. Single. Day - goes by without me missing her, missing her laugh, her smile, her dancing, and her ability to make everything right with just a hug. She loved every moment of her short life, and I have never known anyone to give their love as freely as Bethany did.

It's currently a little before 6am, and I remember how the entire day played out, from one of our favorite nurses waking us up just before 7.30am, to the bad news, the CAT scan, the waiting, the conversations, the look on the doctors face when he returned, the decision, right up to the end at 12.21pm. I remember it all like it was yesterday.

And as quickly as she made everyone in the world smile, she was gone. She burned so hard and so bright, everyone knows who she was, and her light, her smile, touched the world.

To my beautiful Angel,
I can't believe it's been two years, my little gorgeous. I miss you so much baby. I came in from shopping the other day and expected you to be swinging out on the bannisters with a "DADDY!" and then helping me with the shopping while seeing what I'd bought.

I know where you are now, and I know you are doing what you want, when you want. No medicines, no stopping to catch your breath, nothing you don't want to do. I know you never complained about any of it, but I know you wanted to be fixed. I just wish it hadn't been in the way it turned out.

I will see you again gorgeous, one day. Then you can show me how wonderfully you dance, how bright your smile is, and comfort me when you fall asleep on my lap. But for now, I can't come and play, and you know that. You know I have Jaysen and Tamsyn to look after here, and I need to hold Mummys hand where you can't.

I miss you so much, my beautful little angel. I wish I could hold you, could smell your hair, hear you laugh and just see you dancing around the room, but it'll have to wait for now.

When I close my eyes, I see you baby, shakin' your ass.


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17 Responses to “Two Years Ago Today”

Nancy Jensen said...

Another beautiful tribute to an amazing little girl - now an angel. Many hugs coming your way. She will always be your little girl.

debbie said...

Just wonderful Dan, to a beautiful little Angel.. sorry can't write much for tears.

Anonymous said...


I too can`t write ,this is just so beautiful,a special tribute for your little girl. My heart is breaking as it was 2 years ago.
Nicole (CHDUK)

The Special Zipper said...

Beautiful Dan. Thoughts are with you from Australia.

Best wishes
Tim & family

Laney said...

There isn't much I can say really, what a lovely tribute. I'll be thinking of you all today.

Anonymous said...

Such a beautiful tribute - my thoughts are with you. X


What a lovely tribute to such a special little girl. I will be thinking of you and Jo today.

Jenny said...

Dear Dan and Jo,
Thank you for sharing your hearts with us....I do not know what else to say. It is so, so sad....thank you for sharing despite the pain.

Anonymous said...

Dan, Jo, Jayson and Tamsyn,

What a beautiful tribute to sweet Bethany. The last photo is priceless. The songs we so very powerful. Thank you for sharing Bethany with us all. We will never forget her.

DriedPapercutsAndChickens said...

She certainly was responsible for many smiles and she touched many.

joansy said...

Dan & Jo,
It's a beautiful tribute. Lots of love and hugs,

Terri@SteelMagnolia said...

Oh Dan... that was so touching...
and I am in tears....My heart breaks for you and Jo.


Flawed And Disorderly said...

Oh my gosh! I knew I couldn't read that without gushing tears. I almost didn't read it because I didn't want to feel any pain, but then I thought how selfish and petty that was compared to what you go through every single day. God bless you--deeply. You amaze me. She's soooooooooo beautiful!

Deni said...

Dan,Jo and family,you are in my thoughts and prayers today,What a little sweetheart angel.Deni

Minge said...

Beautiful. Sending you love and hugs.

g-man said...

Not how I expected to start my day, with tears in my eyes. Totally beautiful sentiment.

Dan said...

Thank you everyone for your comments, they are much appreciated :)