Sleepy Time #1

Last night saw Episode One of operation "That's It Body, You're Going To Sleep, Like It Or Not"  Kellie stayed up with me for as long as she could, but just after midnight, she called it a day. Or night, Whichever.

It is a very very rare occurrence for one of us to go to bed before the other. Usually once one of us is tired (ie, once Kellie is tired) we both go to bed. The only exception to the rule is being ill or having a migraine. I can honestly not think of any time when one of us has said "Night Night" and the other has stayed downstairs doing their own things.

But I digress.

After tucking her in, I came back downstairs, and played World of Warcraft into the night. I opted for the 2am til 6am pattern, thinking that I usually doze off later in the night - knowing my luck, I would have fallen asleep at half four, only to have to get up at five.

I killed monsters, but didn't play seriously - more killing time than stressing my brain out struggling through a quest chain. 0145 rolled around and I logged off, had a glass of water, cleared up my stuff, checked my mail, played silly buggers on the phone for a bit, and at 2am, I got into bed.

And there I lay for goodness knows how long - long enough to solve all of the worlds problems, and then promptly forget them again. It was a good while, I know that much. I DID fall asleep, but don't know for how long - when I woke up, I instinctively looked at the clock, and it was just after 5am, so I rolled over, buried my face in Kellies hair, and tried to fall back to sleep.

I should point out at this juncture, that I don't lay in bed fretting about not sleeping, not getting to sleep, not staying asleep. I've been told it's my own fault I don't sleep for this very reason, but I honestly don't. Some nights I dread going to bed because I know I won't get much sleep, but usually, I have lots of very random thoughts. Last night, at 5am, the Ricky Martin song "She Bangs" was going around and around my head.

Why? I have no idea. I can't even tell you the last time I heard it. I lay there listening to my Brain-Music, and eventually, the alarm started to dance on the side, so I just gave up and got up.

It's here that my brain kind of did a double take. Usually I toss and turn but don't always give up and get up, but on rolling out of bed, my brain seemed detached like "WTF are you doing? Stay in bed"  Even when I was stood in the shower trying to wake up I could tell my brain and body were at odds.

I'm struggling to explain it, and making it sound like I'm more mental than I actually am. I KNOW my brain and body are all the same thing - ME, in fact - but I think the shift in my usual pattern has confused me on a subconscious level.

Maybe I'm a sucker for a routine (and I really am!) and the break in the routine goes against every fibre in my body, and it's just that adjusting. I don't feel any more or less tired than I usually do when I fall out of bed and stagger downstairs in the mornings, but I know that's going to change.

Now to just resist the urge to nod off during the day!

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