two years ago today

this time two years ago, me and jo were tired. beyond exhausted. i don't think either of us had any sleep at all, and we were the most worried people on the planet. at this precise moment, we were walking the foggy streets of london trying to keep our mind off everything, which was a task in futility...

today was the day our daughter had open heart surgery. at 0830, we took her down to the operating theatre and stood there while they knocked her out. words can't describe watching your daughter fight drugs, screaming, kicking and crying, then as they work, suddenly silence...

we walked around london that morning - trying to kill time, bought her a teddy for her for when she woke up, and just walked around in the cold thick london fog. we got back to guys hospital at about 11am, and sat there till 1330, when they told us they were finished. it took another hour before we could see her, and when we saw her, it was awful - covered in iodine, pipes, wires - we were ready for it, but not THAT ready...

you can't really explain it to people that have never been through it. they just can't grasp it.

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